Does she watch your favorite movies?
Does she hold you when you cry? 
Does she let you tell her all your favorite parts When you've seen it a million times?
like we used to?

"Sometimes, we just gotta let go. Of people, of feelings, of things. No matter how big this world is, we can never befriend a million people. We can't have it all. What we can have, is what we deserve."

Because of you - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

you know my name, doesn't mean you know my REAL story! don't judge me if you don't know me who i am, 'cause you just know my name not my REAL story!

who am i? (chapter 1)

when the sky became dark in the morning .. when the sky became light at night .. whether it? Is the end? I think yes. actually, I'm not ready to die. I want to live in this world because I have not perfected my prayer .. what will happen?

June 6, 2011. I woke up at 6 am and then I take a shower and breakfast,after that I went to school. I was a junior, was ninth grade junior high school. Jessica Marx that's my real name, you can call me Jessica.

the school looks different today, I don't know why. 'they like hate me, what will I do? what makes you mad to me? "Jessica. Jessica dreamy, suddenly there is someone who comes with a plain white shirt and black jacket turns out he is Jack Flynn, a close friend of Jessica's handsome & good! 'whats wrong with you? you look different today, usually you talk a lot but why are you silent today? "-Flynn.
'I don't know, Flynn. people today look different, they like to hate me '-Jessica.
'yes then? I guess not. now you know what date? Did you forget?"-Flynn.
'6 June, right? " "yeah, right. then you forget? " 'what is it? I really forget what happened today" '' TODAY IS YOUR BIRTHDAY 15th JESS! " -Flynn.
all-man friend Jessica and others go into the classroom, it is not enough but they all give a gift to Jessica! Jessica was shocked and she was confused. LOL she cried! 

'today's special  for you, don't forget today and let's the party!"-Kevin Gerard. Kevin is funny and smart guy, he likes to playcomputer he can be everything in the computer!
'yeah right! I hope this day fun, especially for you Jess' -Carol Jennifer. Jennifer is a good woman and she's pretty, but she emotional.  she was the mysterious woman!
'yes, let's start the party. thank you friends! xoxo ' -Jessica Marx. Bersambung..

KAPAN GUE GENDUT. KAPAN GUE GENDUT.

gini nih nasib orang yang terlalu suka diet >,<
dulu gue beratnya 43/44kg. sekarang? apa coba? 38/39kg buat seumuran cewe kaya gue?!! lu kira segini ideal, mending gue gendut trs tinggi. lah ini, gue tinggi tapi kurus begini. GOD-_-
naik 6kg aja bisa kali ! terus agak gendutan dikit biar berisi gitu HUAHAHAHA.
 #prayforme the end._.

call my name and i'll be there<3

 "When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."
-- Dr Seuss