Does she watch your favorite movies?
Does she hold you when you cry? 
Does she let you tell her all your favorite parts When you've seen it a million times?
like we used to?

"Sometimes, we just gotta let go. Of people, of feelings, of things. No matter how big this world is, we can never befriend a million people. We can't have it all. What we can have, is what we deserve."

Because of you - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

you know my name, doesn't mean you know my REAL story! don't judge me if you don't know me who i am, 'cause you just know my name not my REAL story!

who am i? (chapter 1)

when the sky became dark in the morning .. when the sky became light at night .. whether it? Is the end? I think yes. actually, I'm not ready to die. I want to live in this world because I have not perfected my prayer .. what will happen?

June 6, 2011. I woke up at 6 am and then I take a shower and breakfast,after that I went to school. I was a junior, was ninth grade junior high school. Jessica Marx that's my real name, you can call me Jessica.

the school looks different today, I don't know why. 'they like hate me, what will I do? what makes you mad to me? "Jessica. Jessica dreamy, suddenly there is someone who comes with a plain white shirt and black jacket turns out he is Jack Flynn, a close friend of Jessica's handsome & good! 'whats wrong with you? you look different today, usually you talk a lot but why are you silent today? "-Flynn.
'I don't know, Flynn. people today look different, they like to hate me '-Jessica.
'yes then? I guess not. now you know what date? Did you forget?"-Flynn.
'6 June, right? " "yeah, right. then you forget? " 'what is it? I really forget what happened today" '' TODAY IS YOUR BIRTHDAY 15th JESS! " -Flynn.
all-man friend Jessica and others go into the classroom, it is not enough but they all give a gift to Jessica! Jessica was shocked and she was confused. LOL she cried! 

'today's special  for you, don't forget today and let's the party!"-Kevin Gerard. Kevin is funny and smart guy, he likes to playcomputer he can be everything in the computer!
'yeah right! I hope this day fun, especially for you Jess' -Carol Jennifer. Jennifer is a good woman and she's pretty, but she emotional.  she was the mysterious woman!
'yes, let's start the party. thank you friends! xoxo ' -Jessica Marx. Bersambung..

KAPAN GUE GENDUT. KAPAN GUE GENDUT.

gini nih nasib orang yang terlalu suka diet >,<
dulu gue beratnya 43/44kg. sekarang? apa coba? 38/39kg buat seumuran cewe kaya gue?!! lu kira segini ideal, mending gue gendut trs tinggi. lah ini, gue tinggi tapi kurus begini. GOD-_-
naik 6kg aja bisa kali ! terus agak gendutan dikit biar berisi gitu HUAHAHAHA.
 #prayforme the end._.

call my name and i'll be there<3

 "When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."
-- Dr Seuss 

I think im not pretty and not too ugly. right?hehe._.

APRIL MOP!!! \=D/ HAHAHA BERHASIL NGERJAIN DAN NGAKAK ABIS-ABISAN =))

kapan gue gendut?

hey guys,

gue bingung nih kenapa berat gue jadi nurun drastis gini.. dulu itu kalo gasalah 45kg deh dan segitu itu diblg gendut ,keluarga gue jg byk yang bilag gendut. BUT WHY????? :O tapi kenapa semenjak smp gue jadi kurus gini.............. dan lo tau sekarang berat gue berapa? 38kg sial ! kalo lo liat asli badan gue pasti ngejek nih huft.. 

kapan gue gendut ? kapan gue gemuk ? dan kapan gue gak dibilang tepos lagi ? :|

#aprilwish berat naik 7kg BIG AMIN !

This was never the way I planned

Not my intention

I got so brave, drink in hand

Lost my discretion

It's not what, I'm used to

Just wanna try you on

I'm curious for you

Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong

It felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it

No, I don't even know your name

It doesn't matter,

You're my experimental game

Just human nature,

It's not what,

Good girls do

Not how they should behave

My head gets so confused

Hard to obey

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong

It felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it,

(Screamed)

Us girls we are so magical

Soft skin, red lips, so kissable

Hard to resist so touchable

Too good to deny it

Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong

It felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it

You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away.

Save You - Simple Plan

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
It's drowning into whispers
You're just skin and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up of the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you checkup on through
Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I’ll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oooh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (ohh)  

'buanglah pacar pada tempatnya!' it's mean in my heart ~=p

When you're gone - Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take


Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you